When memories start to burn

I just don't know how to start.

Days of contemplation and tear-inducing flashbacks and suddenly it's so difficult to come up with the words which would run parallel to my exact thoughts and emotions. So I guess it's best not to get emotional.

I guess there's no more fighting left to do now. We gave it our all for the better part of our 2 year relationship. But it was a matter of pushing a rock that never did seem to budge.

Two people who truly care for each other and want to spend the rest of their lives irritating the other should never be forced to part. Not by Parents or Friends or Anyone Else. The decision to remain together should be the sole right of those in the relationship itself. But of course Life always has other ideas.

I was supposed to escape from Work by having a Life and now I'm supposed to use Work to escape from Life itself. I hope that's not some sort of sick and perverse way of having a work-life balance.

I wanted to keep this post as Un-EMO as possible and I hope I've done that. The length and tone of this post in no way does justice to the beauty of what we had together, which will remain engraved in my heart for as long as it functions (both physically and emotionally).

Please forget me and move on. I will try to do the same. We have to do this no matter how much we lose our focus in life and no matter how many tears our pillows soak. To whoever came up with the line, It's better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all, I hope you have a long stick forced up your arse.

It's always best to love and to be able to keep them. It's just too bad I love you so much that I fully understand and accept why this must be done.

Just remember that if she ever brings up the topic of me, i hope by that time you finally learn to stand up for yourself (and me). Tell her that he can get her all the crystal in the world but I gave her something he will never be able to.

I gave her her daughter back.