As i sat in my living room, listening to the merciless rain thundering upon my awning in the patio, i recounted the dream i experienced just a coupe of moments before. It was the most vivid of dreams i've had in a while now..
2 human chains, or rows of seats stretching as far as the eye can see, made up of many faces some i've known some i've never seen before..yet all were from CJ.. i was near the front, where everyone was standing up.. it was a game.. somehow we were to pass items by kissing.. The game started, the other team was fast locking lips and moving down the line.. before i knew it, kenneth came beside me, grinned and spit sth out on his hand, putting it into my mine.. cheating, as usual.. i had the stuff, it turned out to be the buttons from my tradional Malay dress, i recognised the red gems embedded into the buttons.. Then everyone's faces faded, yet i could still hear cheers and i realised that the other team was way ahead.. i ran down the row and stopped at a girl.. then i noticed that someone was sitting just behind, jen, with rach and jasmine.. This was my chance.. i remembered thinking that since this was a game she could not refuse.. i skipped that girl and went to jen's seat, her face turned to shock and when i bent down to kiss her, she moved away resisting my attempts to kiss her.. the pain i felt at that moment, the rejection, the embarassment at having being rejected in a silly game.. i can still feel it now.. finally i gave up and moved to the next row where i saw Angel and Jolene.. Jolene gave me a peck on the lips and i passed her the buttons.. I turned towrds jeneen and suddenly i was alone. I woke up.
Why am i still dreaming of her? It's been 6 long years man.. and the dreams come back every few months.. its haunting me man.. i dunno why. someone. help me. please.
2 human chains, or rows of seats stretching as far as the eye can see, made up of many faces some i've known some i've never seen before..yet all were from CJ.. i was near the front, where everyone was standing up.. it was a game.. somehow we were to pass items by kissing.. The game started, the other team was fast locking lips and moving down the line.. before i knew it, kenneth came beside me, grinned and spit sth out on his hand, putting it into my mine.. cheating, as usual.. i had the stuff, it turned out to be the buttons from my tradional Malay dress, i recognised the red gems embedded into the buttons.. Then everyone's faces faded, yet i could still hear cheers and i realised that the other team was way ahead.. i ran down the row and stopped at a girl.. then i noticed that someone was sitting just behind, jen, with rach and jasmine.. This was my chance.. i remembered thinking that since this was a game she could not refuse.. i skipped that girl and went to jen's seat, her face turned to shock and when i bent down to kiss her, she moved away resisting my attempts to kiss her.. the pain i felt at that moment, the rejection, the embarassment at having being rejected in a silly game.. i can still feel it now.. finally i gave up and moved to the next row where i saw Angel and Jolene.. Jolene gave me a peck on the lips and i passed her the buttons.. I turned towrds jeneen and suddenly i was alone. I woke up.
Why am i still dreaming of her? It's been 6 long years man.. and the dreams come back every few months.. its haunting me man.. i dunno why. someone. help me. please.
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